November 20, 2010

"Saya Budak Gemok" - I'm a Fat Boy

I think this is the first 'official' true story about me =,= enjoy!


It was when I was 11 that I first realized that I have become a ‘budak gemok’, a tubby, a fattie, an ugly boy. Initially, being fat did not bother me - most probably because I was still a kid and appearance did not really matter much back then. However, when I entered ‘sekolah menengah rendah’ or middle school, I began to feel uneasy with my look. While I may look happy and carefree all the time, I was really emotionally depressed – I hated the way I look, I hated the way people look at me, I hated myself. No one knew or cared about the state of my mind at that time but honestly, I don’t blame them because I myself didn’t show any dissatisfaction about my body – most probably because I was ashamed that I was ashamed of myself.

It was after my 14th birthday that I decided to lose weight for real. I tried all the diet routines but I couldn’t really follow because I was always hungry - failure. I tried cardio-exercising but it became half-baked efforts since I was never into physical activities - failure. I even tried getting myself into sports but that was even more ridiculous and of course, to no avail - failure. At that point, I felt like a real sore LOSER – a BIG FAT UGLY LOSER who can’t do anything right. My self-esteem was zero. With additional ‘moral supports’ from people around me saying things like ‘gemok’, ‘tembon’, ‘tembam’ which all means fat, my self esteem dropped from 0 to -273.15.

“Salvation” came knocking when one day; I ate so much that I needed to vomit. Yes, I really needed to vomit. Don’t get me wrong; I always overate to the point that I felt like vomiting but this time, it was beyond only feeling like vomiting – I actually went to the toilet and vomited. After that incident, every time I felt the slightest need to vomit, I would force myself to vomit. It came to a point that feeling full became a reason for me to vomit. The decreasing reading on the weighing scale became a motivation for me to keep on doing the thing I felt right – my conscience was fooled; my foolish act was justified.

After a few weeks, the rate of my weight loss started to decrease and I was panicking. From around 1 or 2kg per week, the weight loss was becoming less than 1kg per week – and that was when I started starving myself. As far as I remembered, if there was no weight loss, I would eat so little until my weight really dropped – and when I say ‘eat so little’, I mean to a point where I would eat a piece of bread and some veggies a day; and starvation usually lasted 2 or 3 days. After some times, I couldn’t keep up anymore with all my ‘weight loss plans’ – I was always hungry, I was constantly tired and I was never satisfied with my weight loss.

Yet, I still keep myself strong and tried to find new supplements to my weight loss routine. The supplements include eating acidic food, cutting down carbohydrates and of course, abusing laxatives. Yes, I was also involved in the notorious act of laxative abuse – yeah! During the weekends, I would steal some of sister’s so-called herbal tea which acts exactly like laxatives and spend most of my time in the toilet. I was so happy that I found ways to make myself thinner that I never realized how stupid and dangerous all the things I was doing were, especially laxative abuse.

Eventually, one day, I got caught. I can’t really recall who saw me vomiting that day but that person told my brother what I was doing and he told me that I was having a psychological problem. Psychological problem? I didn’t believe him, or to be exact, I didn’t want to believe him but still, I looked up about the whole psycho thing and found out that he was right – I was bulimic. I wanted to believe that I was losing weight the right way but the evidences were too clear and hence, I had to admit my mistakes and change my ways.

Surprisingly, it was really easy. I found a new diet routine - high-protein diet. The diet was really easy to follow since I still get to eat my favourites. However, as time passes by, I slowly began to forget controlling my diet. I am now getting fatter and fatter and it really should stop! I will try to lose weight again and this time, I’ll practice the right way from the start. I really don’t want to be ‘budak gemok’ anymore.

I did not write this post so that more people will try what I did - I don't deny, it worked but it's dangerous people. I've written this post so that those who are practicing bulimic acts like I used to will know when to stop.


p/s: this picture is really 'xleh blah' :P

November 18, 2010

Sonnet 665 "Help"

Salam... I'm really 'sudah gila' for writing this poem.. anyway, this is a really simple poem - no fancy words n stuff... I wanna name it sonnet 666 but it's not dark or satisfying enough (for some embarrassing reasons)... anyway, i think i'll write another sonnet next time and name it sonnet 666... btw, this sonnet may not be what it seems to be.. there may be hidden/subliminal messages... hahaha22



You are the dagger; stabbing my heart,
Leaking lovelorn love that hides in the form of liquid sin,
The sweetest sin I desire; a merciful compassion
That walks me on a road with no moon,

With hands full of warmth,
And smiles made me numb and dumb,
While shards stepped on felt nothing,
Speechless by sincerity, muted by sympathy,

Suffocated happiness await forever in questions,
Your mind is nothing but inspiration,
Your heart is nothing but admiration,
Your body is nothing but perfection,

Help - because I can’t help myself anymore,
Help – because I am helpless against you

November 17, 2010

School School School

Salam all... I just noticed that my blog has WAYYY TOO MUCH WORDS so I'm changing my blo(g)rientation... Zzz.. Anyway, last nite, I passed by my old school n remembered a video I made for English club... the video was actually for an inter-club video-making competition; but of course, i got disqualified because the video is not Islamic enough and is so-called too political... Well, that's life for me.. enjoy d vid :)



Missing my dramatic high school :)

November 9, 2010

Pregnant Pause "Version 6.69b"

Salam.. I'm so tired, sleepy and depressed at the same time. Why tired and sleepy? I've been staying up for two nights already altering 'Pregnant Pause'. Why depreseed? Well, the singing parts in the play are cancelled =,= Sighs, that's 1+ week of working HARD on the songs with Qis and Fieza wasted. 'Yeay!' I'll upload the songs we sang during the rehearsals though. -,- So now I'm eatingggg again to 'un-depress' myself with Alip, Syafiq, Di, n 'Hazue'.. So, this is the result of my alteration. Zzz.. Sad..

PREGNANT PAUSE
By Asyraf Syahir




CHARACTER
Initiate (Pride) - Hakim
The Associate - Asyraf (Not me)
The Mastermind (Greed)- Am
The Advocate (Envy)- Hatim
The Hypocrite (Sloth)- Syidi
The Evolutionist (Gluttony)- Alip
The Lady (Lust)- Azue
The Voice (Wrath)- Me la

A long dark hallway – richly ornamented with luxurious furnishings. At the end of the hallway is a big wooden door – carved in the most unique and distinctive carvings. Three men dressed in aristocratic demeanours can be seen walking towards the door. The Mastermind is wearing a set of slick black tuxedo. Initiate is wearing a white shirt with a necktie and a pair of dark-coloured trousers – accompanied by The Associate.

PROLOGUE



Initiate: Where is the meeting going to be? Where are you taking me? I demand an answer!

The Associate: (Trying to calm Initiate) Be patient Mr. President. Be patient.

The Mastermind: Yes, Mr. President. Listen to your boy – be patient. You’ll have the answer soon enough. Besides, you’re the one who agreed to do this in the first place (puts on an evil smile).

Initiate: I am a man of great importance. A minute of mine is more precious than a million hours of commoners like you. Patience is out of my option!

The Mastermind: Great importance huh? (Laughs a little) Well, maybe you’re right – you’re more than just a pawn now, but never forget this; you’re at where you are now because of us.

Initiate: (Grunts) Don’t get all superior with me! I’m the President! – P R E S I D E N T! And you? You? You’re just a supplement to my prominence!

The Associate: Be humble Mr. President. Be humble. Pride won’t take you anywhere. Just let him have his say with your feet on the ground.

Initiate looks cynically at The Associate.
The Mastermind: (Laughs out loud) Mr. President, Mr. President. That’s one amusing assistant you got there. He always manages to crack us up with his ignorance – but hey, you’re even more ignorant than him right? Still, that very same blind ignorance of yours is the reason why we have chosen you in the first place. That ignorance is going to keep us in power and all of our plans on track.

Initiate: Watch your tongue you little...

The Mastermind: (suddenly interrupts) Watch your tongue Mr. President. You may hold the power but we are the one who decide on everything. (Initiate silences) Never forget that!

The Associate: What does he mean by they’re the one who decide on everything? (Initiate does not respond) Mr. President, what does he mean?

The Mastermind: It basically means that we are the ones who decide how everyone should think and act! We are the ones who decide who prospers and who suffers! We are the ones who decide who to be president!

Initiate: (Furiously) Shut your pie holes!

The Mastermind laughs.

The Associate: I’m sorry.

The Mastermind: (talking to himself) Yes my Lord, of course. (A brief silence and suddenly laughs) Don’t worry my Lord; I’ll make sure of it.

Initiate: Who the hell are you talking to?

The Mastermind: Our Lord of course. He has doubts about you but don’t worry, I’ve convinced him that you’ll be one of us after this ‘epiphanic’ meeting (smiles).

Initiate looks cynically at The Mastermind.

Initiate: Since when is it our Lord? Cray old fool. I’d never agreed to anything more than what was written on the agreement paper.

The Associate: What are you talking about? Your Lord? Agreement papers? Why haven’t I been informed on anything regarding this matter? (No one answers) Mr. President?

Initiate: (Grunts) Stop being such a busybody, will you?!

The Associate: I’m sorry Mr. President – but...

Initiate: (Sighs) Just shut your mouth up!

The Mastermind: Be at peace Mr. President. Both of you will understand everything after this meeting- nothing to worry about (in a cynical tone).

Initiate: (Sighs heavily) Whatever, you old nut. I got a nation to run.

The Mastermind: Old nut? (Laughs)

Initiate: Of course nutsie. (Sarcastically) Talking to yourself – wow, very sane.

The Mastermind: He thinks I’m insane for talking to you my Lord (laughs again). Yes, I know (continues to laugh).

The three men reach the door.

The Mastermind: Okay, we are here.

Initiate: Just open the damn door.

The Associate: Be patient Mr. President.

The Mastermind: (Laughs) Like what he said - be patient Mr. President. Know this - behind this door, you’ll be introduced to the realm of reality. You’ll understand how this world really works. You’ll understand the sacrifices we have done to make this world a better place. You’ll understand how we’ve helped a lot of people to attain the eternal paradise – and of course, very soon, you’ll be a part of it.

The Associate: Mr. President, sorry to pry again but could you please tell me what’s going on? What did he meant Mr. President?

Iniate: (Sighs) And what makes you think I know what’s going on? I’m only here because of a stupid deal.

The Associate: A deal?

The Mastermind: (Suddenly interrupts) The deal that gave him the presidency.

The Associate: What do you mean?

The Mastermind: (Smiles) You’ll know soon enough.

The Mastermind opens the door and they enter a dark room. After a brief pause, the Chorus enters the hallway.

PARADOS

Chorus: I bring upon you the man of our nation,
God protected,
Has he let power to consume him – in liquid abyss he drowns,
Has he let wealth to devour him – in agonizing greed he suffocates,
Has he let lust to embrace him – in lustrous shades he burns;
A saviour in the eyes of his people,
Glorious leader unshaken by death – all hopes, all false;
A corrupt – defiled with tarred pride,
Sing me the propaganda in reverse,
A requiem to the living – Lacrimosa a smile.

STROPHE
A deal sealed by ignorance – in ignorance,
In claiming ignorant power,
The mind ignored,
And pride restored – wealth and power replanted,
On the soil of imaginary reality.

ANTISTROPHE
A door with mystery,
Led to by a man of mystery,
A Pandora’s Box? Perhaps,
Blank yet infinite questions with,
Unreasonably reasonable answers,
On a white paper – black in colour.

The Chorus exits the hallway and the hallway darkens. The dark room brightens up – revealing a meeting room with The Advocate, The Lady, The Hypocrite and The False Prophet along with Initiate, The Associate and The Mastermind.


EPISODE 1



The Mastermind: Gentlemen – and Lady, our awaited President is here.

The Advocate: (Sighs) Finally!

The Evolutionist: Welcome Mr. President.

The Hypocrite: Yes, welcome.

The Lady: Welcome, welcome. (Seductively) Have a seat Mr. President. I’ve saved one for you; right here beside me (winks and laughs).

The Mastermind and Initiate take their seats. The Associate stands behind Initiate.

The Mastermind: Now, let us proceed with our meeting. The agenda for today – the initiation of our Mr. President.

Initiate: (Simultaneously with The Associate) Initiation? Initiation into what?

The Associate: Initiation?

Everyone except Initiate, the Associate and the Advocate laughs.

The Advocate: You haven’t told him yet?

Initiate: Tell me what? What hasn’t he tell me dammit?

The Mastermind: (Ignoring Initiate) Well, it’s not that I didn’t want to tell him but the Lord believes that it’s better for you to tell him your parts yourselves.

The Advocate: Very well then. If that’s what the Lord wants, then I bear no objections.

Initiate: (Furiously) Can you tell me what the damn have I brought myself into?

The Advocate stands up and the room suddenly silences. The Advocate approaches Initiate’s seat.

The Hypocrite: (Cynically) Brace yourself Mr. President.

The Advocate: (Firmly) Mr. President, there are some questions from our side regarding your presidency that have been troubling us. (Initiate signals The Advocate to proceed with his question) During your future running as the president, would you really consider to contribute in religious fields?

Initiate: Well, I’m a great man - no doubts about that, but when it comes to religions, I may not be the most religious man – unlike my assistant here (everyone else makes uneasy expressions). Still, I think there’s no harm in contributing to religions - so, what the heck.

The Advocate: (Firmly) You’re not really answering - why do you want to help religions?

Initiate: (Murmurs) Well, ummm...

The Associate: Well, Mr. President here believes that faith in God is vital in developing a nation since
ultimately, God is the one who holds the authority to prosper a nation (everyone else feels
uncomfortable).

The Advocate: So the two of you believe in God eh? God? Heh.. Now tell me, why do you serve your so-
called God?

Initiate: Because God is our creator and we are his servants? Why are you asking this question anyways?

The Advocate: So you’re saying that we should serve God just because he created us? Just because he
created us? Seriously? That’s the only reason why we should serve him? So, even if God is evil, we still
have to serve him?

The Associate: What do you mean by even if God is evil?

The Advocate: (Chuckles) Your minds are too polluted by religion indeed. Haven’t you ever use your
brain to think for once? – about life, about your religion, about your so called God Almighty? You really
believe that God is a goody-two-shoe who cares for his creations? God loves us all? Open your eyes and
look around you. Tell me what doyou see? Diseases, deaths, wars, catastrophes – that’s what I see; and
supposedly God can do anything. Well, if God can do anything at his will and He loves us, why not stop
all of those from happening? Why can’t He just let us live happily? Why does He make evil exists? – easy,
God is evil!

Initiate: God is evil?

The Associate: No Mr. President, no. God is not evil. He asked - why does God make evil exists?
(Chuckles) Well, that’s quite a funny question actually because God never make evil exist. Evil is not even
real. Evil is the state where good is absent in mankind – and thus, evil is the product of mankind.

The Advocate: Oh, wow. Suddenly when it comes to something bad, mankind is the one to blame.
(Sarcastically) God created everything but not evil.

The Associate: Well, the concept is very similar to darkness – darkness is not really real. It is merely the
state where light is absent. So again, evil is not really real. It is merely the state where good is absent in
mankind. Thus, it is actually the act of mankind ourselves - turning away from good that results in the
‘existence’ of evil. Understand this: God does not have to do any evil to you. He can just move away
from you. Where there is no light, there is darkness.

Initiate: (Chuckles) So you can’t blame God for something man caused.

The Advocate: Man-made or not, God has the power to stop it doesn’t He? He is the so-called Almighty, isn’t He? – according to you anyways.

Initiate: Yes, yes. Why doesn’t He stop evil?

The Associate: Because everything in our life has its good and bad sides – even the so-called ‘evil’. Sometimes you have to be evil. For example; the act of killing. If you’re too good to even kill a chicken for your own meal, then you won’t be living at all. At this situation, you need to be ‘evil’ and see through your conscience. That’s why God doesn’t take away our evil side – because evil can be good at times. It’s what you do with your evil side that counts. God knows best.

The Advocate: If that’s the case, why bother create demons that tempt mankind to do ‘the evil side of evil’?

The Associate: Why not?

A long uncomfortable silence.

The Associate: Mr. President, who are these people again?

Initiate: Well, from what I recall, they introduced themselves as the people who govern the world.

The Mastermind: Indeed we are. We are the secret society that governs the world – trying to make it a better place, a place better than what God has created for us.

The Associate: Better than what God has created? That’s very sane but what does the president has anything to do with you people?

Everyone laughs except Initiate, The Associate and The Advocate.

The Associate: Mr. President?

Initiate stays silent.

The meeting room darkens and the Chorus reappears.

STASIMON 1

STROPHE

Chorus: I bring upon you the devil’s advocate,
Stirring new brews of doubts
In a holy cauldron of qualms - tainted,
Becometh the state of mind uncertain,
Becometh beliefs unclear – vaguely drifting,
By hollow stream and drags away.

ANTISTROPHE

A challenger of God,
He who believes but rejects – fulminating pride unveiling,
An exhibition of abhorrence,
A display of blasphemy,
Blaming God’s shadows – unreasonable,
Albeit given reasonable reasons.

The chorus exits and the meeting room brightens up again.

EPISODE 2



The Evolutionist: My boy, you won’t get any answers from your president. He knows nothing.

The Hypocrite: (Laughs) Yes, yes. Nothing. What do you think brought him here?

The Evolutionist: His ignorance of course!

Both The Evolutionist and The Hypocrite laugh out loud.

Initiate: (Furiously) Damn you! I’m not ignorant!

The Evolutionist and The Hypocrite laugh out loud again.

Initiate: (Hammers his hands on the table) You’re messing with the wrong...

The Associate: (Tries to calm Initiate down) Calm down Mr. President. Being angry doesn’t bring any good at all. It’ll only...

Initiate: Don’t be all preachy with me! I’m the President! - I own commoners like you!

The Associate: (Apologetic) I’m sorry Mr. President.

The Hypocrite: Don’t apologize to him boy. You have more brains than him (grins).

Initiate: (Furiously) Hey!

The Evolutionist: (Ignoring Initiate) But still not enough.

Initiate: (Continues to speak) Don’t underestimate my intelligence!

The Evolutionist: (Ignoring Initiate) It’s a waste though. I can see that you’re someone who actually uses brain but what a pity – you believe in God and religion. What a pity.

The Associate: How come...

Initiate: (Interrupts and signals to The Associate that he got it covered) How come believing in God and religion becomes a waste?

The Evolutionist: You’re serving a so-called God who is intangible – you can’t see him, you can’t hear him, you can’t touch him. So what makes you believe God exists? What makes Him real?

Initiate: The fact that we are here, the fact that we exist is proof enough that God exist. Who could have created us other than God, right?

The Evolutionist: Nice try Mr. President but don’t expect me – a scholar of science who believes in the principle of evolution to believe the craps they feed you from the so-called ‘Holy Books’.

The Associate: God really does exist and He does not need to be tangible to exist. Just like oxygen – you can’t see it, you can’t smell it, you can’t touch it – but you know it’s there, you know it exists, you know it’s real.

The Hypocrite: Nice one - a wise answer.

The Evolutionist: Yes - but it still does not really explain the possibility of God’s existence. I mean, you can compare God’s intangibility with other intangible particles but fairytales about God do not just stop at intangibility.

The Associate: And I guess when you say fairytales; you’re referring to the credibility of God as the divine creator?

The Evolutionist: You have one wise assistant here Mr. President.

Initiate: (Grunts) I guess.

The Evolutionist: But still not wise enough though – for believing that our existence is due to God’s doing is rather foolish!
The Associate: Foolish? And I guess you think your theory of evolution is an ingenious one?

The Evolutionist: What better answer to existence than evolution?

The Associate: Yes, I don’t deny your claim - evolution is a good answer to existence but it is only partially true.

The Evolutionist: Partially true? What are you trying to infer?

The Associate: Well, although creationists have never been in agreement with evolutionists, both of them do not realize that their theories are inter-related. Evolution is a creation.

The Evolutionist: Evolution is creation? (Chuckles) I bet you’ll try to justify creationism by saying that God is the one responsible for evolution? (Laughs) Classic theistic evolutionist, let me tell you this – evolution is not created, evolution itself creates.

The Associate: (Cynically) Evolution creates? Really? Tell me how then.

The Hypocrite: (Grins) I see someone’s getting too comfortable.

The Evolutionist: Evolution in general is the change of form. So, to make it simpler, let’s take an example of a frog egg. Frog eggs evolve into tadpoles and later on into frogs. Here, we can see that the evolution of frog eggs into tadpoles created tadpoles and the evolution of tadpoles into frogs created frogs. Hence, evolution creates. Easy right?

The Associate: But then again, where did that first frog egg come from? Evolution? Evolution from what? Well, that’s where creation plays its role. God created the first ever frog egg so that it can evolve into a frog. Hence, evolution is a part of creation.

The Evolutionist: Well, doesn’t that deviate from your so-called true teachings of religion? What about the supposed first ever human beings, Adam and Eve? According to creationists, God didn’t create them from sperms right?

The Associate: Yes, God did not create Adam and Eve from sperms but that still does not cancel out the compatibility of some parts of evolutionism with religions. (Laughs) What I don’t understand is that how does this deviate from religion? I never said that evolution is completely true – I said that evolution is partially true. Know this, no holy scriptures has ever mentioned or described how Adam and Eve looked like so there’s a big possibility that they don’t really look like us Homo sapiens - but of course, they’re definitely not monkeys (chuckles). In Muslims’ scripture, there’s even a story of a man with horns. Now that’s not very Homo sapiens right?

The Evolutionist: Still, even if evolution is compatible with religions, it still does not prove God’s existence right?

The Associate: But it also does not disprove His existence.

Initiate: (Suddenly interrupts) Wait a minute! Wait a minute! Shouldn’t this meeting be about me? How come suddenly it becomes science class? – and why does my assistant suddenly becomes a part of this meeting?

The Mastermind: Oh yes, the meeting (laughs). (Talking to himself and suddenly seems serious) What’s that my Lord? (Pause) No, no – don’t worry about him (pause). I’ll make sure of that.

Initiate: (Cynically) Who the hell are you talking to?

The Mastermind: Haven’t I told you already? I’m talking to our..

Initiate: (Suddenly interrupts) and please don’t say our Lord. You’re talking to yourself!

The Mastermind: Well, well, well. If I heard right, God does not need to be tangible to exist? Just because you can’t see or speak to our Lord, doesn’t mean He doesn’t exist (smiles wickedly).

STASIMON 2
STROPHE 1

I bring upon you the Evolutionist,
Wearing white deceit,
To indoctrinate deceit – pitch black,
The colour of mind malady – a syndrome,
A disease in the form of rhapsody,
He who preaches new ligaments of creed,
Amputating tendons considered as obsolete,
Self-driven, never guilt-stricken.

ANTISTROPHE 1

Arcane be his sanctum,
Manufacturing faux conflicts and clashes,
Orchestrating symphonies of divided aeon – a brood-mother,
Of progenies spawning in discrimination,
Blood spills and smiling faces – an ersatz vengeance, a triumph.

EPISODE 3



The Mastermind: Anyway, I think we need to proceed with our meeting now.

Initiate: (Making annoyed faces) Thank God!

The Mastermind: But I think your assistant should leave Mr. President.

Initiate: (Simultaneously with The Associate) Why the hell?

The Associate: Why is that?

The Hypocrite: The matters of which I am about to unveil is confidential.

The Mastermind: (Showing the door) If you could wait outside until the meeting ends?

Initiate: (As The Associate is about to walk towards the door) No! No! He leaves, I leave.

Initiate looks intensely at The Mastermind
The Mastermind: Persistent eh? Very well then. Let’s just proceed then.

Initiate puts on a satisfied look. The Mastermind signalled The Hypocrite to proceed.

The Hypocrite: Mr. President, being a man with religion; how do you view religions – I mean the major monotheistic religions; namely Islam, Christianity and Judaism?

Initiate: Being a believer of a monotheistic religion, I honestly do see corruptions in them – even my own. Islam is now a terroristic religion which has lose the sense of being tolerable and united, Christianity has always been notorious for its corrupted priests while Judaism is now a monopolistic religion which seems to be behind wars and treaties.

The Hypocrite laughs out loud.

The Hypocrite: Well, he has just proven what a good job I have done.

The Mastermind: Indeed he has (smiles wickedly).

Initiate: What are you trying to imply?

The Hypocrite laughs again.

Initiate: Tell me Goddamit!

The Associate: (Pats Initiate’s back) Patience Mr. President. Don’t let them get to you.

The Hypocrite: Mr. President, Mr. President. Haven’t you learnt anything?

Initiate and The Associate put on inquisitive looks.

The Hypocrite: Do you really think that coincidentally, corruptions happen in all monotheistic religions and very little happen in polytheistic religions?

Initiate: So you’re saying that...

The Associate: ...someone’s behind these corruptions?

The Hypocrite: Bingo!

Initiate: And I believe that you guys have something to do with it?

The Hypocrite: Bingo again! Mr. President, let me explain one thing. There’s one thing that the followers of these monotheistic religions do not realize; it is that their religions are originally the same. Christianity, Judaism, Islam; all these religions originally convey one same message – that is to worship the one same God.

Initiate: What the hell are you talking about? Their Gods are not the same. Muslims serve Allah, Christians serve Jesus and Jews serve Adonai or YHWH.

The Hypocrite: (Laughs) Mr. President, Mr. President. You still can’t solve the puzzle?

Initiate: What puzzle?

The Associate: He’s trying to tell you that they’re the ones responsible in dividing Muslims, Christians and Jews. They’re the ones responsible in corrupting these three religions.

Initiate: But I still don’t understand; how come these religions are originally the same?

The Hypocrite: Oh Mr. President. (Chuckles) Think about it, these religions are so similar fundamentally – they even have scriptures that bear quite some similarities – the Torah, the Bible and the Quran.

Initiate: Those scriptures? They’re not the same.

The Hypocrite: Okay now, tell me, in all these three Books, which of them does not tell the story of Noah? (Initiate silences) Which of them does not tell the story of Adam? (Initiate silences) Which of them does not tell the story of Moses?

Initiate: None of them?

The Hypocrite: Yes, all of them have the stories of the same people.

The Associate: But then again, most of the stories are in different versions.

The Hypocrite laughs out loud.

Initiate: Because you changed the stories!

The Hypocrite: Bingo! Bingo! Bingo! (Continues to laugh)

The Associate: But why?

The Hypocrite: These books – the Torah, the Bible, the Quran are too dangerous for mankind.

Initiate: What do you mean? Dangerous?

The False Prophet: Your God has set up a so-called guideline in these scriptures and those who are sane enough would know that it is impossible for us, mankind to follow this guideline.

Initiate: Wait, wait. What’s so ridiculous about this guideline?

The Hypocrite: What’s so ridiculous you ask me? (Laughs) Well, the guideline generally opposes human nature – that’s what ridiculous.

Initiate: Such as?

The Hypocrite: (Laughs) I need to spell out one by one for you, don’t I? (Laughs again) Well, consider this logic; God is the one who created us with anger and hate, but then in his scriptures, he forbids us from being angry and vengeful towards others. Isn’t that ridiculous? Why bother create anger as one of our basic instincts if it something forbidden? Why not just create us without anger?

The Associate: But in his guidelines, God also wants us to love and help each other. That does not sound opposing to human nature right?

The Hypocrite: Yes, but...

The Associate: And I don’t think there’s any harm in controlling our hatred. If anyone can deny that controlling hatred is beneficial, then come forth – but I know no one can. I mean, human right is one thing but laws and order is no less important – and this is the Divine Law.

The Hypocrite: Yes, yes, I get your point but can everyone control their anger?

The Associate: Well, that depends since...

The Hypocrite: It’s a fact boy - not everyone can control their anger; and for those who can’t, they will be breaking the so-called Divine Law – and you know what happens to those who break His Law right? Yes, they will be condemned to eternal suffering – the Hell. That’s why we have taken the measure to save all mankind by corrupting these scriptures!

Initiate: (Simultaneously with The Associate) What the Hell?

The Associate: How can corrupting God’s scriptures become the salvation for mankind?

The Hypocrite: Boo-hoo and supposedly you’re the ones with religions. (Laughs) Have you ever even read these Books? – I mean really read as in knowing their contents. (Initiate and The Associate look annoyed and The Hypocrite continues to laugh) In His Books, God states that those who do bad deeds unintentionally will not be punished since deeds are based on intentions. So, by corrupting His scriptures, no one will know that the bad deeds they are doing are in fact bad deeds – hence, no one will be doing bad deeds intentionally! Thus, no one, regardless of what they have done will be punished unnecessarily by our cruel tyrant you call God! (Sighs and laughs)

Initiate: (Hesitantly) That actually sounds pretty convincing though.

The Mastermind, The Evolutionist and The Lady grins. The Hypocrite laughs.

The Associate: Mr. President, don’t let yourself get deceived.

Initiate: Yes, yes. Of course not. (Pause) Of course not.

The Hypocrite: (Cynically) So what’s your say about the efforts we have made in corrupting God’s scriptures and saving mankind Mr. Assistant? – Your president doesn’t seem to object (laughs).

The Associate stays silenced and The Hypocrite continues to laugh.

The Hypocrite: Nothing to say Mr. Assistant? I guess that means we’re right then.

The Mastermind: Such a disappointment. Such a disappointment.

A brief pause and suddenly The Associate start to speak.

The Associate: It’s not that I don’t have the answer but the answer is beyond your comprehension and mine as well perhaps. It overpasses human logic and I know you won’t accept or believe something which is out of logic.

The Mastermind: Who says we don’t believe things out of logic? (Grins)

The Associate: What do you mean?

The Hypocrite: Have we ever once claimed that we don’t believe in God’s existence? We believe in God and everything. It’s just that we chose to go against Him because we believe he’s not the rightful God - our God doesn’t necessarily be our creator at the same time.

The Associate: Don’t you think that one who creates knows what He created the best? Who is more rightful than the creator himself to be God then?

The Mastermind: The true God – the one who sees all!

The meeting room darkens and the Chorus enters the meeting room.

STASIMON 3

STROPH 1

Chorus: I bring upon you the Hypocrite
Bringing dogma to a new dawn – distorted,
The art of man – corrupted,
Clouding God’s words – an indigenous laceration,
A quasi putrefaction of truth.

ANTISTROPHE 1

Demiurge be the God,
With image stained and tainted,
Reflected by false pages - beautified,
Of lies enshrouded – bearing disbelief,
Divine stigma becometh the God,
And believers turn away,
The pit of malice ascending

The chorus exits and the meeting room brightens up again.

EPISODE 4



The Lady: (Breaks the silence) Come on now everyone, I think you guys should loosen up a little bit. All this talk about God and all is making me sleepy weepy.

The Advocate: Go home and sleep please. No one wants you to come anyway.

The Lady: (Sticks her tongue out) Meanie weenie! Anyway Mr. President, I’m sure you’re getting tired of this ‘not fun’ meeting right? (Suddenly stands up and clears her throat) Well, attention everyone, can we take a break so that we can have some fun for a while?

The Hypocrite laughs.

Initiate: Fun?

The Mastermind: (In an annoyed tone) Oh Lord, what are you doing?

The Advocate: There she goes again.

The Lady: Okay, good – everyone agrees. Let’s play a game then(smiles).

Initiate: A game? Seriously? Now?

The Lady: Of course I’m serious, silly. (Giggles) So what do you like to play? (Seductively) Strip poker? (Shows poker cards) Spin the bottle? (Shows a bottle and winks) What do you do for fun Mr. President?

The Advocate: Where the hell did you get those things?

The Lady sticks her tongue out again.

Initiate: What about Simon Says?

The Lady: Yes, yes, wow, very interesting – not! (Giggles and stares into the emptiness for a while) I got it! – let’s play truth or dare! (Giggles) Me first! Me first!

The Advocate: Like anyone else is interested.

The Lady sticks her tongue out.

The Lady: I choose (pause for a while) dare! Bring it on baby (winks).

Initiate: Should I dare you to do something now?

The Lady: (Giggles) Of course silly, ask me to do anything. (Seductively) Anything (winks).

Initiate: Ummmmm... I dare you to...

The Associate whispers to Initiate. Initiate smiles.

Initiate: Ahah, I dare you to tell me what I have brought myself into with the deal?

The Lady: (Looks here and there and smiles) That’s your dare? Okay then. We want to use you as our puppet in making our plan a reality. Satisfied?

Initiate: Only that? (Laughs)

The Lady: Okay now, it’s your turn- truth or dare? (Smiles wickedly)

Initiate: Truth.

The Lady: (Giggles) Now tell me truthfully, would you like a world without God? - a world without rules or restraints? A world where you are the sole master to your own actions, a world where you are the God to yourself (her face lightens up).

Initiate silences.

The Associate: A world without God? (Laughs) Stop being delusional. It’s impossible.

The Lady: (Giggles) I’m not talking about its possibility silly, I’m asking whether you’d like it or not (Smiles).

The Associate: (Firmly) I won’t like it – and neither will the president.

The Lady: Awww – and you expect me to believe that? How cute

The Associate: (Laughs) Of course we won’t like it. Why? It’s because what you’re proposing is ignorantly foolish actually. Yes, without God, the world won’t have any rules or restraints but if we think again, what will the world be left with if there is no God? There won’t be any rules or restraints but then again, there will also be no world. What’s left to like? (Laughs)

The Lady: Fair enough (smiles).

Initiate: That’s it? No further debates or arguments?

The Lady: Well, I don’t really like to argue – I really don’t. I prefer living happily and enjoying life the way I like it to the fullest (smiles).

The Associate: Only life? What about death?

The Lady: I don’t think about it (smiles) because the day our Lord becomes the real God, death will be a myth.

The Associate: You’re keeping your hopes too high for an uncertainly impossible future. This Lord of yours is not even real. It’s impossible.

The Lady: Impossible? Well, to you it might sound impossible but not to us, not to our so-called unreal Lord - He sees all. He has seen the future and believe me, it really is possible. (Without anyone even has the chance to talk) I mean, why are you even defending God? God has created us to test our devotion towards him – well, that’s according to religions anyways. Then, after millions of years testing millions and billions of human beings, He is going to destroy us all in one single day. Your all-loving God who is supposedly the most merciful is going to destroy His creations in just one day! Is our existence so worthless that He wants to destroy us all in just one day? Are we that worthless to Him? (Tears up) Sorry, I’m being a little bit emotional.

Initiate: Well, I don’t know about that but still, there’s nothing we can do about it – the Judgment Day is inevitable.

The Lady: (Emotionally) Who says it’s inevitable? Who says we can’t stop God from destroying us? We can prevent that horrible day from coming by giving our Lord his rightful place as the real God! We can prevent that day from happening by making the New World Order or Novus Ordo Seclorum a reality!

The Associate:

The meeting room darkens again – leaving only The Lady to be visible. The Chorus enters.

STASIMON 4

STROPHE

Chorus: I bring upon you the Lady in Red,
An enchantress; docile but unruly,
Tempting through scarlet satisfaction,
A representation of cunning pleasure – transitory,
Static; contentment – illusory.

ANTISTROPHE

Martyr of the unfair world – unlock,
And open the door to self divinity,
Realize that we are our own God – liberated,
Becometh wealth our body,
Becometh power our soul.

The chorus exits and the meeting room brightens up again.

EXODOS


Initiate: So, this Lord of yours, where is He now?

The Mastermind: Where is our Lord you ask me? He’s with us of course.

Initiate: (Furiously) Dammit, can’t you understand? I’m asking you, where is your Lord at this very moment?

The Mastermind: I’ve told you right? He’s with us. (Laughs)

The room suddenly turns darker.

The Voice: (Suddenly becomes audible) (Laughs).

Initiate: (Frightened) Who the hell’s that?

The Voice: Don’t you know who I am?

Initiate: Who are you?

The Voice: You really don’t know who I am?

The Associate: Don’t listen to that thing Mr. President!

The Voice: I’m the one who sees all.

The Associate: Stop listening to that thing Mr. President.

The Voice: Believe in my words – bow down to me; and I will award you with paradise.

The Initiate seems to be mesmerized by something beautiful.

Initiate: I believe, I believe...

The Associate: No, Mr. President, no!

The Voice: Go against me; and I will punish you with eternal damnation!

The Associate: I will not obey!

The Voice: Then suffer!

The Associate seems to be in great pain. He collapses and dies.

The Mastermind, The Advocate, The Hypocrite, The False Prophet and The Lady laugh out loud and leave the meeting room. Initiate is left alone in the room in a kneeling position.


KOMMOS

Initiate: Oh, ethereal entity of divinity,
You come forth – bearing serpentine offerings,
A serrated serotonin – disguised in the semblance of self-selection,
An elusive spectral illusory.

STROPHE

Chorus: The promised future aeon – challenged,
In replacing the throne of divinity – a divine conspiracy,
Indoctrinated minds – the gateways to the dawn of dogma,
The gateways to self trinity – unlocked, unchained, undressed,
You are your own sole creator.

Initiate: I am a fallen man – a servant of the all-seeing!

ANTISTROPHE

Chorus: The deceptive essence of appearance,
A wicked kindness, a malevolent benevolence,
A bright darkness, an illuminated obscurity,
Salvation-coated deviancy – a battle to prevail,
To begin an ending or end a beginning.

The curtain closes.

November 3, 2010

Pregnant Pause "Original Version"

Salam.. yaw.. first of all, let me xplain the meaning of the phrase pregnant pause n let me tell u, it has nothing to do with being pregnant.. haha =,= pregnant pause means "an occasion when nobody speaks although they are aware that there are something to be expressed or said".. okay.. i have written this drama for IIUM's Raudhah festival 2010 n oh ya, the play is banned =,= i'm quite depressed rite now.. anyhow, i have to alter the script to instill the element of islamic vision or sumthing.. but this is the original version.. I didn't write this script to portray blasphemous acts towards religions or sumthing but i wrote it to show the reality of the world today which is - more n more people with power r giving in to the *****. Oh ya, the script is in Ancient Greek format so it has stasimons which are choral odes or songs.. zzz =,=

PREGNANT PAUSE



CHARACTER
The Mastermind
The Advocate
The Hypocrite
The False Prophet
The Lady
The Voice
Initiate

A long dark hallway – richly ornamented with luxurious furnishings. At the end of the hallway is a big wooden door – carved in the most unique and distinctive carvings. Two men dressed in aristocratic demeanours can be seen walking towards the door. The Mastermind is wearing a set of slick black tuxedo. Initiate is wearing a white shirt with a necktie and a pair of dark-coloured trousers.

PROLOGUE

Initiate: Where are you taking me? I demand an answer.

The Mastermind: Be patient Mr. President. Be patient. You’ll have the answer soon enough. Besides, you’re the one who agreed to do this in the first place (puts on an evil smile).

Initiate: I am a man of great importance. A minute of mine is more precious than a million hours of commoners like you. Patience is out of my option!

The Mastermind: Great importance huh? (Laughs a little) Well, maybe you’re right – you’re more than just a pawn now, but never forget this; you’re at where you are now because of us.

Initiate: (Grunts) Don’t get arrogant! You’re just a supplement to my prominence.

The Mastermind: (Laughs out loud) Mr. President, Mr. President. You always manage to crack us up with your ignorance – but that very same blind ignorance is the reason why we have chosen you in the first place. That ignorance is going to keep us in power and all of our plans on track.

Initiate: Watch your tongue you little...

The Mastermind: (suddenly interrupts) Watch your tongue Mr. President. You may hold the power but we are the one who decide on everything. (Initiate silences) We were the one who decide that you are to be the president. We are the ones who decide how everyone should think and act! We are the ones who decide who prospers and who suffers! Never forget that!

A long uncomfortable silence.

The Mastermind: (talking to himself) Yes? Of course my Lord, of course. (A brief silence and suddenly laughs) Don’t worry my Lord; I’ll make sure he submits to you.

Initiate: Who the hell are you taking to?

The Mastermind: Our Lord of course. He has doubts about you but don’t worry, I’ve convinced him that you’ll be one of us after this ‘epiphanic’ meeting (smiles).

Initiate: What the hell are you talking about? Our Lord? One of you?

The Mastermind: Be at peace Mr. President. You’ll understand everything after this meeting- nothing to worry about (in a cynical tone).

Initiate: (Sighs heavily) I can’t believe I’ve made a deal with a lunatic.

The Mastermind: Lunatic? (Laughs) He thinks I’m a lunatic for talking to you my Lord (laughs again). Yes, I know (continues to laugh).

The two men reach the door.

The Mastermind: Okay, we are here.

Initiate: Just open the damn door.

The Mastermind: Like I’ve said before, be patient and relax Mr. President. Behind this door, you’ll be introduced to the realm of reality. You’ll understand how this world really works. You’ll understand the sacrifices we have done to make this world a better place. You’ll understand how we’ve helped a lot of people to attain the eternal paradise – and of course, very soon, you’ll be a part of it.

Initiate: (Starting to take it more seriously) So, this is a big thing huh?

The Mastermind: (Pleased to see Initiate’s change of attitude) Of course my president, of course. This is not just another meeting about petty little things like campaigning for presidency or financing or something like that; this meeting revolves around a much bigger aspect of life - this is about something that pre-dates even religions.

Initiate: What do you mean?

The Mastermind: (Smiles) You’ll know soon enough.

The Mastermind opens the door and they enter a dark room. After a brief pause, the Chorus enters the hallway.

PARADOS

Chorus: I bring upon you the man of our nation,
God protected,
Has he let power to consume him – in liquid abyss he drowns,
Has he let wealth to devour him – in agonizing greed he suffocates,
Has he let lust to embrace him – in lustrous shades he burns;
A saviour in the eyes of his people,
Glorious leader unshaken by death – all hopes, all false;
A corrupt – defiled with tarred pride,
Sing me the propaganda in reverse,
A requiem to the living – Lacrimosa a smile.

STROPHE
A deal sealed by ignorance – in ignorance,
In claiming ignorant power,
The mind ignored,
And pride restored – wealth and power replanted,
On the soil of imaginary reality.

ANTISTROPHE
A door with mystery,
Led to by a man of mystery,
A Pandora’s Box? Perhaps,
Blank yet infinite questions with,
Unreasonably reasonable answers,
On a white paper – black in colour.

The Chorus exits the hallway and the hallway darkens. The dark room brightens up – revealing a meeting room with The Advocate, The Lady, The Hypocrite and The False Prophet along with Initiate and The Mastermind.





EPISODE 1

The Mastermind: Gentlemen – and Lady, our awaited President is here.

The Advocate: (Sighs) Finally!

The Lady: (Seductively) Have a seat Mr. President. I’ve saved one for you; right here beside me (winks and laughs).

The Mastermind and Initiate take their seats.

The Mastermind: Now, the meeting is officially commenced. The agenda for today – the initiation of our Mr. President.

Initiate: Whoa, whoa. Initiation? Initiation into what?

Everyone except Initiate and the Advocate laughs.

The Advocate: You haven’t told him yet?

Initiate: Tell me what? What haven’t he tell me dammit?

The Mastermind: (Ignoring Initiate) Well, it’s not that I didn’t want to tell him but the Lord believes that it’s better for the four of you to tell him your parts yourselves.

The Advocate: Very well then. If that’s what the Lord wants, then I bear no objections.

Initiate: (Furiously) Can you tell me what the damn have I brought myself into?

The Advocate stands up and the room suddenly silences. The Advocate approaches Initiate’s seat.

The Hypocrite: (Cynically) Brace yourself Mr. President.

The Advocate: (Firmly) Now tell me, do you believe in God?

Initiate: Well, I may not be the most religious man but I do believe in God and I believe I have tried my best to fulfill my religious obligations to Him. Why does this even matter?

The Advocate: (Ignoring Initiate’s question) Why do you serve God?

Initiate: Because God is our creator and we are his servants? Why the hell am I answering these kinds of
questions anyways? (Getting frustrated)

The Advocate: So you’re saying that we should serve God just because he created us? Just because he
created us? Seriously? That’s the only reason why we should serve him? So, even if God is evil, we still
have to serve him?

Initiate: What do you mean by even if God is evil?

The Advocate: (Chuckles) Your mind is too polluted by religion Mr. President. Haven’t you ever use your
brain to think for once? – about life, about your religion, about your so called God Almighty? Being a
creator does not make someone or something a saint. Let’s take a look from this angle; if you are a
programmer and you created a software, in a way, that makes you a creator right? (Initiate silences) But
then, did you create that software because you love the software or because you want profits from
the software? – the money, the fame? (Initiate silences) Of course the fame and fortune. You’re not
answering so I believe you’re thinking that what I’m saying might probably be true. Well, it is. It’s
a hard fact but God really did not create us because He loves us but simply because He wants to exploit
profits from us – praises! – Praises that satisfy His selfish desires.

Initiate: That’s just ridiculous but even if God created us for His own satisfaction, that still does not make
Him evil.

The Advocate: Oh, really? You really believe that God is a goody-two-shoe who cares for his
creations? God loves us all? Open your eyes and look around you Mr. President. Tell me what do
you see? Diseases, deaths, wars, catastrophes – that’s what I see; and supposedly God can do anything.
Well, if God can do anything at his will and He loves us, why not stop all of those from happening? Why
can’t He just let us live happily? Why does he make evil exists?

Initiate: (suddenly interrupts) He wants to test our devotion towards Him!

The Advocate: To test us? To test our devotion? Our existence is merely a test to the All-Loving God? –
Not to forget, those who fail his test will face His eternal damnation. I mean, He can create anything at
His will, why not just create us with a ready-made devotion? Why bother test us if he is the All-knowing
God? He should have known already who would pass the test and who wouldn’t, wouldn’t He? – and if He has known this already, why even bother create the sinners who would eventually burn in Hell?

Initiate: (Grunts) You can’t blame God for something man caused.

The Advocate: (Interrupts) Man-made or not, God has the power to stop it doesn’t He?

A long uncomfortable silence.

The Mastermind: (Clears his throat) Well then, I think we should be introducing ourselves already. We are the secret society that governs the world – trying to make it a better place, a place better than what God has created for us.

Initiate: That’s very sane but why do I have anything to do with your psychotic plans?

Everyone laughs except Initiate.

The Mastermind: Have you forgotten already?

Initiate: Forget about what?

The Mastermind: (Chuckles) Oh, silly ignorant God-believer. You are now the president. Do you really believe that you are president because of your own efforts? – or do you think it’s because of God? (Everyone except Initiate laughs) Let us be clear once and for all, we made you President. In fact, every previous president before you who’ve won the presidency was all because of us.

Initiate: What do you mean?

The Mastermind: We control everything! – the media, the economy, everything! – including the election which you have won. Know this, only those who submit to us, to our Lord will attain worldly success.

Initiate: But when the hell did I ever make a deal with you?

The Mastermind: (Chuckles) It was our Lord. You may have not officially made a deal with us but He sees that you were willing to do anything to win the election and hence, He awarded you with the presidency.

Initiate: And I should believe all this because?

The Advocate: (Suddenly interrupts) Because if you don’t, we’ll be glad take away you position, wealth and maybe even your life.

The meeting room darkens and the Chorus reappears.

STASIMON 1

STROPHE

Chorus: I bring upon you the devil’s advocate,
Stirring new brews of doubts
In a holy cauldron of qualms - tainted,
Becometh the state of mind uncertain,
Becometh beliefs unclear – vaguely drifting,
By hollow stream and drags away.

ANTISTROPHE

A challenger of God,
He who believes but rejects – fulminating pride unveiling,
An exhibition of abhorrence,
A display of blasphemy,
Blaming God’s shadows – unreasonable,
Albeit given reasonable reasons.

The chorus exits and the meeting room brightens up again.

EPISODE 2

The Hypocrite: Stop scaring our poor president here. It’s not his fault that he’s created ignorant.

The False Prophet: And we can’t say it’s not our fault either.

The Hypocrite and The False Prophet laugh out loud.

Initiate: Damn you! Stop it with saying I’m ignorant! If I’m stupid, I wouldn’t be the President!

The Hypocrite: (Laughs) Chill Mr. President, chill. We’re just messing with you.

The False Prophet: But still, you’re serving a so-called God who is intangible – you can’t see him, you can’t hear him, you can’t touch him. So what makes you believe God exists? What makes Him real?

Initiate: God really do exist and He does not need to be tangible to exist. Just like oxygen – you can’t see it, you can’t smell it, you can’t touch it – but you know it’s there, you know it exists, you know it’s real.

The Hypocrite: Finally, a wise answer.

The False Prophet: For once.

The Mastermind: (Smiles wickedly) Well, this might be interesting after all.

The Hypocrite: Mr. President, being a man with religion; how do you view religions – I mean the major monotheistic religions; namely Islam, Christianity and Judaism?

Initiate: Being a believer of a monotheistic religion, I honestly do see corruptions in them – even my own. Islam is now a terroristic religion which has lose the sense of being tolerable and united, Christianity has always been notorious for its corrupted priests while Judaism is now a monopolistic religion which seems to be behind wars and treaties.

Both The Hypocrite and The False Prophet laugh.

The False Prophet: Well, he has just proven what a good job we have done.

The Hypocrite: Indeed he has (smiles wickedly).

Initiate: What are you trying to imply?

The Hypocrite and The False Prophet laugh again.

Initiate: Tell me Goddamit!

The Hypocrite: Mr. President, Mr. President. Haven’t you learnt anything?

Initiate puts on an inquisitive look.

The False Prophet: Do you really think that coincidentally, corruptions happen in all monotheistic religions and very little happen in polytheistic religions?

Initiate: So you’re saying that someone’s behind these corruptions?

The False Prophet: Bingo!

Initiate: And I believe you guys have something to do with it?

The False Prophet: Bingo again!

The Hypocrite: Mr. President, let me explain one thing. There’s one thing that the followers of these monotheistic religions do not realize; it is that their religions are originally the same. Christianity, Judaism, Islam; all these religions originally convey one same message.

Initiate: What the hell are you talking about?

The Hypocrite: (Laughs) This is the fact that no one knows and those who know don’t really want to accept.

The False Prophet: Think about it, these religions emerge at different times with different books – the Torah, the Bible and the Quran.

The Hypocrite: Why are there similarities in these scriptures? (Initiate silences)

The False Prophet: But there are also differences in them, right? (Chuckles) Well, that’s where we come in.

The Hypocrite: These books – the Torah, the Bible, the Quran are too dangerous for mankind.

Initiate: What do you mean? Dangerous?

The False Prophet: Your God has set up a so-called guideline in these scriptures and those who are sane enough would know that it is impossible for us, men to follow this guideline.

The Hypocrite: What is more ridiculous is that those who fail to follow this impractical guideline will have to face His eternal damnation.

Initiate: Wait, wait. What’s so ridiculous about this guideline?

The False Prophet: What’s so ridiculous you ask me? What’s so ridiculous? Let’s take one easy example; God is the one who created us with anger and hate, but then in his scriptures, he forbids us from being angry and vengeful towards others. Isn’t that ridiculous? We cannot be angry? Seriously? Why bother create anger as one of our basic instincts if it something forbidden? Why not just create us without anger?

Initiate: Well, maybe God wants us to...

The Hypocrite: (Suddenly interrupts) That’s why we have taken the measure to save all mankind by corrupting these scriptures!

Initiate: What the Hell? How can corrupting God’s scriptures become the salvation for mankind?

The Hypocrite: It’s because of God himself! He said that those who never know about his words are excused from being punished and so, we have taken the initiative to save everyone else from being punished by corrupting His scriptures! – so that no one knows about his words! Hence, no one will be punished by our cruel tyrant you call God!

Initiate: I don’t believe this! I don’t believe this! There’s no way you can corrupt His scriptures!

The False Prophet: (Laughs) Well, the methods in corrupting every scripture differ – especially the Quran. For the Bible, the high priests in the past were on our side so there’s not much trouble in clouding the Bible. For the Torah; well, I don’t really know much because it was so long ago but believe me, it’s corrupted. For the Quran, (laughs) we didn’t actually change any text but even without changing any text, Muslims still got corrupted! (laughs again)

Initiate: Wait! Wait! I got another enquiry. About Muslims being terrorists, about Jews being Zionists; you are the ones behind it right?

The Hypocrite: (Laughs) Clever boy. The Holocaust, the Soviet Union, the 9/11 incident and everything else - all were our plans all along. We created the Holocaust to give birth to Zionism and the 9/11 incident, well, isn’t it obvious? (Laughs again) For everything else, you do the research (smiles).

The False Prophet: You must be wondering, why did we plan and do all the catastrophes since everything else that we do is mostly for the betterment of mankind?

The Hypocrite: Well, sometimes sacrifices have to be made for mankind to live a better life. Forgive us.

The False Prophet: But these sacrifices have to be done to make way for the salvation of mankind from our tyrant creator, to make way for the era of a new God – He who sees all!

The meeting room darkens and the Chorus enters the meeting room.

STASIMON 2

STROPH 1

Chorus: I bring upon you the False Prophet,
Bringing dogma to a new dawn – distorted,
The art of man – corrupted,
Clouding God’s words – an indigenous laceration,
A quasi putrefaction of truth.

ANTISTROPHE 1

Demiurge be the God,
With image stained and tainted,
Reflected by false pages - beautified,
Of lies enshrouded – bearing disbelief,
Divine stigma becometh the God,
And believers turn away,
The pit of malice ascending.

STROPHE 2

I bring upon you the Hypocrite,
Wearing white deceit,
To indoctrinate deceit – pitch black,
The colour of mind malady – a syndrome,
A disease in the form of rhapsody,
He who preaches new ligaments of creed,
Amputating tendons considered as obsolete,
Self-driven, never guilt-stricken.

ANTISTROPHE 2

Arcane be his sanctum,
Manufacturing faux conflicts and clashes,
Orchestrating symphonies of divided aeon – a brood-mother,
Of progenies spawning in discrimination,
Blood spills and smiling faces – an ersatz vengeance, a triumph.

The chorus exits and the meeting room brightens up again.

EPISODE 3

The Mastermind: (talking to himself) He’s making progress my Lord. (Laughs) Of course my Lord, of course. I’ll make sure of that (smiles).

Initiate: (Cynically) Who the hell are you talking to?

The Mastermind: Haven’t I told you already? I’m talking to our..

Initiate: (Suddenly interrupts) and please don’t say our Lord. You’re talking to yourself!

The Mastermind: Well, well, well. Weren’t you the one who said God does not need to be tangible to exist? Just because you can’t see or speak to our Lord, doesn’t mean He doesn’t exist (smiles wickedly).

Initiate silences.

The Lady: (Breaks the silence) Come on now, I haven’t said much since this meeting commenced. (Seductively) I think it’s my turn to talk to my president (smiles).

The Advocate: Whatever.

The Lady: (Sticks her tongue out) Meanie! Anyway, Mr. President, do you consider yourself as someone who abides by your religious obligations?

Initiate: Well, I really am not such a religious person. I may have...

The Lady: (Not really paying attention to Initiate) Yes, yes, wow, very interesting – but wouldn’t you prefer a world without rules or restraints? A world where you are the sole master to your own actions, a world where you are the God to yourself (her face lightens up).

Initiate: A world without rules or restraints? (Laughs)

The Lady: Wouldn’t you like it? I mean a world where you won’t be required to fulfil any religious obligations - you won’t feel guilty even if you’re doing something wrong since everything’s right (smiles).

Initiate: I know what you meant but it’s impossible.

The Lady: Impossible? Well, to you it might sound impossible but not to us, not to our Lord - He sees all. He has seen the future and believe me, it really is possible. (Without Initiate even has the chance to talk) Let’s look at it this way; God has created us to test our devotion towards him – well, that’s according to you anyways. Then, after millions of years testing millions and billions of human beings, He is going to destroy us all in one single day. Your all-loving God who is supposedly the most merciful is going to destroy His creations in just one day! Is our existence so worthless that He wants to destroy us all in just one day? Are we that worthless to Him? (Tears up) Sorry, I’m being a little bit emotional.

Initiate: Well, I don’t know about that but still, there’s nothing we can do about it – the Judgment Day is inevitable.

The Lady: (Emotionally) Who says it’s inevitable? Who says we can’t stop God from destroying us? We can prevent that horrible day from coming by giving our Lord his rightful place as the real God! We can prevent that day from happening by making the New World Order a reality!

Initiate: (Inquisitively) The New World Order?

The Lady: (Suddenly her mood brightens up) That’s the world I talked to you about – a world without rules or restraints, a world without our tyrant creator as God, a world governed by the real God – the one who sees all!

Initiate: (Talking to himself) A New World Order huh? Is it really possible?

The meeting room darkens again – leaving only The Lady to be visible. The Chorus enters.

STASIMON 3

STROPHE

Chorus: I bring upon you the Lady in Red,
An enchantress; docile but unruly,
Tempting through scarlet satisfaction,
A representation of cunning pleasure – transitory,
Static; contentment – illusory.

ANTISTROPHE

Martyr of the unfair world – unlock,
And open the door to self divinity,
Realize that we are our own God – liberated,
Becometh wealth our body,
Becometh power our soul.

The chorus exits and the meeting room brightens up again.

EXODOS

Initiate: So, this Lord of yours, where is He now?

The Mastermind: Where is our Lord you ask me? He’s with us of course.

Initiate: (Furiously) Dammit, can’t you understand? I’m asking you, where is your Lord at this very moment?

The Mastermind: I’ve told you right? He’s with us. (Laughs)

Initiate: Damn you! I’m not playing!

The Mastermind: (Smiles wickedly) Why the sudden interest Mr. President? (Cynically) I thought you don’t believe in what we’re saying.

Initiate: Just because I may be interested to know doesn’t mean that I believe in what you’re saying!

The Voice: (Suddenly becomes audible) But I see your heart is saying otherwise – you do believe!

Initiate: (Frightened) Who the hell’s saying that?

The Voice: I’m the one who sees all. I am your God!

The Mastermind, The Advocate, The Hypocrite, The False Prophet and The Lady laugh out loud and leave the meeting room. Initiate is left alone in the room in a prostrating position.


KOMMOS

Initiate: Oh, ethereal entity of divinity,
You come forth – bearing serpentine offerings,
A serrated serotonin – disguised in the semblance of self-selection,
An elusive spectral illusory.

STROPHE

Chorus: The promised future aeon – challenged,
In replacing the throne of divinity – a divine conspiracy,
Indoctrinated minds – the gateways to the dawn of dogma,
The gateways to self trinity – unlocked, unchained, undressed,
You are your own sole creator.

Initiate: I am a fallen man – a servant of the all-seeing!

ANTISTROPHE

Chorus: The deceptive essence of appearance,
A wicked kindness, a malevolent benevolence,
A bright darkness, an illuminated obscurity,
Salvation-coated deviancy – a battle to prevail,
To begin an ending or end a beginning.

The curtain closes.