March 30, 2011

Johny's Soliloquay

Salam guys. Okay. I just want March to end with another post. Hence, the monologue below is an excerpt from "the Devil isn't Always Evil" - an original short play by me :D It's the part when Johny repents after his talk with the Devil - a soliloquay. Enjoy! (or sleep =,=)

Azrael’s wings’ I’ve worn,
God’s powers I’ve pilfered,
To take death into my own hand;
Was a shame - a disgrace to mankind,
If man’s dagger be the taker of another’s life,
What needs is a reaper’s scythe?
Forgive me to say;
But lanterns, be from hell do not err one’s way,
The progenies of evil mourns the death of their lovelorn kiss,
For the lucidity of my mind has been revealed;
In new reveries.

Thank you. Salam :)

March 25, 2011

Limau suam please.

Salam all. Just a quickie :)

Hi, how are you?
Hi, I miss you.
Hi, I love you.
Silence is definitely the best dagger-
To bleed one's heart.
sharpened with deceit - even better.
Love fails, heart wails, words frail.

Sekian, terima kasih. Keep youselves alive guys.

March 24, 2011


Salam. for those who are following Shafiq Azid's blog of randomness, you'll notice that the title is taken from his recurring series of posts. *Thanks for giving me the idea.

Well, as I was flipping through some of my old assignments, I noticed that I have written something about two months ago which I disagree now (in terms of music). *Go down to see what I think now.

Here's what I had written.
PS: this is the moment when you should start the endless yawning.

The issue of the influence of western media over the morality of youths has often been an unending debate. It has often been unwarrantedly alleged by various indoctrinated bodies that western media is the main cause of moral decline among youths in our country. While it is not deniable that it may be one of the factors for moral declination among local youths, it is quite unlikely that it is the main factor for it. Western media does have its roots in tainting the morality of Malaysian youths but I strongly disagree that it is the main factor for the perpetually-perturbing ethical damage. To make it clear, my stance on the word morality is based on the definition from which is “a system of conduct and ethics that is virtuous” (par.1 ). Hence, in order to make the definition unbiased and fair, the term ‘morality’ will not be viewed from racial, national or religious viewpoints. The basis of my rejection towards this claim is grounded on three interrelated raison d'être – the dominance of local media, the anti-Americanism movement and the evidential deficiency of the relationship between the media and morality declination.

When discussing about the first reason for my disagreement – the dominance of our local media, we should not constrict our definition towards the word ‘media’ to only songs and TV programmes. The media denotes a broader meaning than what is usually perceived; it encompasses videos, audios, articles and even photos that generate information to a group of consumers (, par. 3). Hence, what is meant by the dominance of our local media? Taken from, Ioannis Gatsiounis commented from his observation that “among Malaysians, for instance, that when given a choice - say on a flight or at multinational coffee houses - between international newspapers such as the International Herald Tribune and Financial Times and local government-controlled propaganda, they almost invariably choose the latter” (par. 12). Hence, from his evidential observation, it is very hard to deny the fact that local news press has a bigger influence than the western news press – regardless of how prejudiced and government-oriented it is.

Apart from that, still regarding the first reason for my disagreement, the local youths or even Malaysians in general are only exposed to local radio stations nowadays except for Chinese Radio International (CRI), Radio Thailand World Service (RTWS) and Voice of Vietnam (VOV) which are not even Western-oriented radio stations (, par.3). The only ever-existed western-oriented radio station was BBC World Service which was discontinued almost 20 years ago on 31st March 1991 (, par.6). Hence, the claim that western media is the main reason for the moral decline of Malaysian youths is definitely unjustifiable. If English-based radio stations like or is accused of being “messengers of Western-indoctrination”, it is again, unjustifiable since these English-based radio stations are in fact local radio stations and while they do air Western songs, they are still under governmental observation; hence, if anyone is to blame for letting them air the so-called fallaciously seditious ideas, it should be those who permits them to air in the first place.

Regarding the second reason for my disagreement which is the anti-Americanism movement, we should first examine the denotative definition for the term anti-Americanism. According to, the term ‘anti-Americanism’ is referred to as “broad opposition or hostility to the people, policies, or government of the United States.” Obviously, from the definition, the stench of over-generalization can be sensed; but that is a different story. It is what the conclusion that is derived from the definition that should be highlighted – most Malaysians; particularly the Muslim community (which constitutes the most percentage in the population of Malaysia) is against anything that is related to America at one time – a powerful conveyer of Western-based media. Of course, this irrationally generalized hatred could not die overnight and hence, it prolonged to the extent that they reject any news coming from American news companies- regardless of whether the message is truthful or distorted. The problem with Malaysians is that “we are far too easily swayed by emotions, without rationally considering the issue at hand” (, par.1). However, this fact proves that while Malaysian youths’ moral declination may have rooted from Western actions, it is local media that drives the youths to develop hatred, violence and other negative and unethical behaviours which can lead to more serious problems like discrimination towards other religions.

Moving on to the next and last reason for my rejection which is the evidential deficiency of the relationship between the media and morality declination, it is found out in various studies that the media, while it is a powerful tool to influence people to think and act, it can hardly influence people to do something consciously and obviously wrong. For example, even though people may find violence in movies intriguing, there are very few cases in which they are influenced by it (even the few cases are found out to be rooted from psychological problems, not bad media influence) but people are mostly uninfluenced to act violently as it is shown in the movies or TV programmes. We have never seen a movie about killing innocent lives and suddenly we ourselves feel the urge to kill too right? Some may argue that “if televised imagery doesn't affect human behavior, then the TV networks should refund billions of advertising dollars to TV sponsors” (, par. 12); however, they should take note that while the media can influence people, again, it cannot influence something which is consciously and obviously wrong – and bad morality is definitely something which is obviously wrong (if it is conceived from the above given definition).

In short, the claim that western media is the main cause of moral decline among youths in our country is definitely unwarranted and prejudiced; based on three interrelated raison d'être – the dominance of local media, the anti-Americanism movement and the evidential deficiency of the relationship between the media and morality declination.

When I wrote this then, I wasn't really listening to the "mainstream" music industry of the western world. Back then, I was mostly listening to Epica, Chthonic, Draconian, etc. which FOR ME conveys GREAT messages. Epica for example urges us to search for the meaning of our existence. Chthonic urges us to free ourselves from governments which practice tyranny (it's about China's oppression towards Taiwan) HOWEVER, when I listen to Pink and Lady Gaga for example, I noticed how bad the messages in the lyrics convey. Eventhough the music is not as heavy as metal songs (which makes them unacceptable by public), the lyrics are far worse. Pink's Fucking Perfect for example attempts to make everyone feels that they are perfect while in fact, no one's perfect - it's self deception. In Islam, Muslims believe that only Allah is perfect and all other beings are imperfect. In other religions as well, Hindhuism for example, also conveys the message that only God is perfect in the aspect of Saguna Brahman. This is just ONE example, let me let you guys think of the rest (not that I'm saying ALL western songs are bad, NO). It's not that we shouldn't listen to the western music, but be careful not to get too influenced by the subliminal messages. I still listen to Pink regardless of what I've said; I mean, c'mon, the song's catchy right? Haha.

Peace no war. War2 Crew =,= Wslm.

March 12, 2011

Carbonara-ed Chicken Lasagne :D

Salam all. Okay, my ex-classm8 - Raihan all the way from Egypt said that she likes recipes with lotsa cheese coz cheese or 'jibnuh' there is cheap; so here's a "lotsa-cheese" recipe (well, that answers where all the views from Egypt come from). haha. it's been long since i last posted an entry about cooking (not that i've not been cooking, i have)so, here it is.

Okay, these are what we need: Pasta Plates, Prego Carbonara Sauce, Capsicum, Cheddar Cheese, Fresh Milk, Mushroom Spaghetti Sauce, Chicken Chunks, Minced Chicken, Rosemary, Black Pepper, Chicken Stock.

Let's start the cooking guys :)

First, fry the chicken chunks in a pan until it seems golden. Oh ya, add some coarse black pepper to enhance the taste. Put them aside.

Okay, next, fry the minced chicken. After it seems cooked, put it aside. Hey, I got an assistant there. haha.

After that, cook the carbonara sauce with some slices of capsicum. Again, put it aside after it's done.

Oh ya, after the carbonara sauce is done, cook some spaghetti sauce. it might take quite a long time to start from scratch so i just use instant Kimball's mushroom spaghetti sauce (the sauce looks red as hellfire. haha; but hellfire's black - i know) Add some rosemary and black pepper to enhance the flavour. After that's done, put it aside and prepare for my favourite part. haha.

OH MY GOOD LORD OF ALL MOTHER CHEESE. haha. okay, cook some fresh milk with butter and lots of cheeeeese. add some chicken stock to get extra "chicky" flavour. when u feel satisfied with the amount of cheese, stop - as simple as that. haha. but DO NOT let the milk boil.

When all's done, arrange your lasagne like this. Spread the bottom of your pan(?) with the cheese sauce and place the first layer of pasta plates. Spread some more cheese sauce and put the chicken chunks and minced chicken. Cover the chickens with carbonara sauce and the spaghetti
sauce. Put another layer of pasta plates and repeat these steps until you have no more filling. Make sure that you pasta plates are fully immersed in sauce so that it will not be hard (use instant pasta plates). It is recommended that you use a square/rectangular shaped pan (unlike me) so that the pasta plates can be easily immersed.

okay, put it in the oven for 30 minutes with a temperature of 200 degree celcius. After 30 minutes, wallaaaa~

Slice it into 'cute' pieces n serve it in plates. (oh my I look fat)

En. Ciput is enjoying it. Try it. The end.

March 2, 2011

Asyraf's Term Paper =,=.docx

Salam all. haha. Another super late post from me ;)
Yup, you're rite. haha

It's been quite a while; n you know what, I've finished my foundation studies (probably)in Nilai :) I don't really have an idea on what to write right now (actually I do but I am too lazy to take pictures of em) so let me pay a tribute to Miss Hanita's drama class with my term paper. haha. It was my first attempt for academic writing, so, start the yawning guys. haha =,=

Anton Chekhov’s The Brute is a farcical play about a brutish creditor, Mr. Grigory S. Smirnov visiting a mourning widow, Mrs. Popov, to collect the debts her husband owed him and the visit turned into a fight which eventually made them fall in love with each other. In the play, the writer incorporates a lot of symbols as ciphers for the themes portrayed. The word symbol itself is derived from the Greek verb “symballein” which means “to put together” and the related noun “symbolon” which means “mark”, “taken” or “sign” ( par. 1). Taken from the Oxford Concise Dictionary of Literary Terms (2001), a symbol, in the simplest sense, is “anything that stands for or represents something else beyond it – usually an idea conventionally associated with it. In its literal usage, however, a symbol is a specifically evocative kind of image; that is, a word or phrase referring to a concrete object, scene, or action which also has some further significance associated with it. Therefore, it is usually too simple to say that a literary symbol ‘stands for’ some idea as if it were just a convenient substitute for a fixed meaning; it is usually a substantial image in its own right, around which further significances may gather according to differing interpretations” (253). Coming back to the Brute, symbols are placed in the play to add further layers of meanings in its interrelated themes – the importance of starting a new life, the importance of making the right decisions, and rationality versus emotion.

Looking at the first discussed theme, the importance of starting a new life, it is observable that Mrs. Popov does not get the idea of moving on and starting fresh with her life. Instead, she would not stop clinging on to her past; that is, clinging on to the death of Mr. Popov. Thus, in this theme, there are two noticeable issues that should be viewed and studied in terms of literary symbolic approach – clinging on to the past and living the present. Regarding the first issue in this theme, the symbol used to display its significance is the photograph of Mr. Popov. The photograph of Mr. Popov portrays the abstract idea of Mrs. Popov being clung to the past. Photographs literally are of course pictures that are made using a camera that has a film sensitive to light in it (Oxford Advanced Learner’s Dictionary 1134) but when talking in the context of modern world, they are the recorded memory of the past in the form of pictures. Here, the two keywords that should be highlighted are the words ‘memory’ and ‘past’. Thus, photographs are undeniably the symbol for past memories. For Mrs. Popov to be ‘gazing’ and ‘staring’ at the photograph of Mr. Popov even after seven months of his departure to the afterworld symbolizes that she is still clinging to the bittersweet memories of the past that they shared. Taken from the Oxford Advanced Learner’s Dictionary (2009), the word ‘stare’ takes the meaning of “to look at somebody or something for a long time, especially with surprise or fear, or because you are thinking” while the word ‘gaze’ takes the meaning of “to look at somebody or something for a long time, especially with surprise or love, or because you are thinking” (1495). Here, it is clearly observable that the only difference in the definitions of these two words is the emotions associated with them – stare is associated with fear whereas gaze is associated with love. Through common sense, a sane man would know that one only fears and loves when there is something bitter and sweet respectively. Therefore, it is safe to conclude that the photograph of Mr. Popov is the symbol of Mrs. Popov’s bittersweet past; hence, the symbol of the abstract idea of Mrs. Popov being clung to the past.

In another context, the photograph of Mr. Popov can also have a second symbolization; it is the symbol of the deceptive past of Mrs. Popov. The common saying ‘looks can be deceiving’ is true yet inaccurate for ‘looks are deceiving’. This can be easily observed in the deceitful nature of a photograph itself. For example, a family may look happy and loving in a photograph but it is not a guarantee that they are what they seem to be in reality; and we know that quarrels and fights are inevitable even in the most united family so the fact that a photograph displays only eternalized smiles and love is unquestionably deceiving. The same situation can be applied for the case of the photograph of Mr. Popov in the Brute. It is common sense that a photograph that someone would gaze upon for seven whole months is a photograph which brings reminiscence of good memories. For Mrs. Popov to be indulging herself with good memories of her late husband is the symbolization of her deceiving herself with selected past memories of them being together; for we know that Mr. Popov is a philandering good-for-nothing husband? Hence, in a word, the photograph of the dead Popov symbolizes the deceitful bittersweet past that Mrs. Popov is clung to – a clear symbolization of the issue of clinging to the past.

The theme of ‘the importance of starting a new life’ is also shaped by the issue of ‘living the present’ (as mentioned before) through the repetitive mentioning of the word ‘water’ by Smirnov. From the viewpoint of Biology, water is the substance that makes life on Earth possible (Biology 46). This is because all living organisms require water more than any other substances since water is the medium that regulates most, if not all, living processes. Hence, water in general is the essence of life. In relation to the play, for Smirnov to be requesting water at first from Luca is a clear symbolization of him requesting for the essence that gives him life; an indication that there is a desire for him to live his present life. On the other hand, it is noticeable in the play that Mrs. Popov never moves from the same spot of her life for over seven months. This shows that she is not living the present, instead, she is living her past – her dark, mournful past. Hence, it is relevant to the fact that Chekhov has made her character to never ask for water – as a symbol of her any desires to live her present life since she never shows any signs of wanting the essence of life, water. The repetitive mentioning of the word ‘water’ is therefore a clear symbolization of the issue of living the present in the theme, ‘the importance of starting a new life’. Thus, when discussing about the importance of starting a new life in the Brute, there are two symbols to note on – the photograph of Mr. Smirnov and water.

The next theme that should be studied in order to understand the literary symbolic approach in the Brute is ‘the importance of making the right decisions’. Decision making is a must in life and this issue is strongly highlighted by Chekhov in his play. Again, symbols are used as ciphers to add further layers of meanings in its themes (as mentioned earlier); and in this particular theme, the symbols used are the door of the Popov’s country house and Mrs. Popov’s steward. A door, based on the Oxford Advanced Learner’s Dictionary (2009), is simply “a piece of wood, glass, etc. that is opened and closed so that people can get in and out of a room, building, etc.” (455). However of course, when we review the definition of symbols from the Oxford Concise Dictionary of Literary Terms (2001), it is to no surprise that a simple object such as a door holds a very deep meaning; and in this case, the door symbolizes the stupid decisions made by Mrs. Popov that Smirnov decides not to care. The symbolic meaning of the door is obvious particularly near the beginning and the ending of the story when Smirnov decides to barge into the house and when Mrs. Popov shows him the door after he confesses his feelings to Mrs. Popov respectively.

At the beginning of the story, it is evident that Mrs. Popov has made a decision not to have any visitors since she has not finished her overdue mourning (which is clearly not a good decision); and common sense tells that a house which does not welcome visits will have its doors closed. However, Smirnov has his own way of showing that he thinks the decision made by Mrs. Popov is stupid and he does not care about it and this is portrayed though his action of barging into the house even though Luca has made clear to him of what the widow desires – not to have any visitors. Another clear evident that proves the symbolic meaning of the door is at the end of the play when Mrs. Popov is showing Smirnov the door after he confesses his love to her. When one shows another the door, it is very clear that the former wants the latter to leave; but in the play, when Mrs. Popov shows Smirnov the door, he decides not to care what she has decided and continues to confess his inner feelings. Hence, the door of the Popov’s country house is a clear symbolization of the theme ‘the importance of making the right decisions’ and its symbolic meaning is portrayed through Smirnov’s right decisions of not caring Mrs. Popov’s wrong decisions.

Still regarding the theme ‘the importance of making the right decisions’, it is viewable that Chekhov does not only stress on the importance of decision making through the symbolic meaning of the door but also through the use of Mrs. Popov’s steward as a symbol. In the context of literary symbolism, the steward carries the symbolic meaning of Mrs. Popov’s inability to decide and act based on her own rational thinking. Taken from the Oxford Advanced Learner’s Dictionary (2009), the word ‘steward’ takes the literal meaning of “a person employed to manage another person’s property” (1504). The keyword that should be emphasized on is the word ‘manage’ since it defines the field of power a steward is restricted to. In the play, it is very obvious that Mrs. Popov has authorized her steward to more power and authority than the steward should have since the steward is the only one who has the access to the Popov’s money. Sole access to another’s wealth is surely a power much greater than just managing another’s property. The proof of this excessive authority can be obtained from the play the Brute itself, line 28 until line 40 (Kirszner & Mandell 1046) which shows the two main characters – Smirnov and Mrs. Popov, arguing over the fact she has no ready cash in the house where she claims that access to the money is with her steward who is out of town. Thus, the fact that she has given so much authority to the steward is a clear evident that Mrs. Popov is not making decisions based on rational thinking; hence, explaining the idea that the steward carries the symbolic meaning of Mrs. Popov’s inability to decide and act based on her own rational thinking.

When talking about rationality, a particular popular factor is always present to oppose it – emotion. Thus, the next theme that will be discussed in terms of literary symbolic approach is the theme of ‘rationality versus emotion’. The Brute as a play that incorporates the element of ‘battle of the sexes’, like any other play that discusses gender differences, never runs away from the debate of emotion versus rationality since there is the popular cliché of women being ascribed to emotionality while men being ascribed to rationality. In the play, Chekov features this theme through the arguments of the two major characters – Smirnov and Mrs. Popov and of course, the arguments agree with the cliché by incorporating Smirnov (a man) to rationality and Mrs. Popov (a woman) to being emotional. When we look through the perspective of literary symbolic approach, we can see that Chekhov does not only discuss this theme through what is obvious in the lines but also by embedding a deeper meaning in the theme in between the lines, through the use of the symbol; Smirnov breaking the back of the chair.

Regarding the symbol used to symbolize this theme, it is noticeable in the stage directions in line 73 and 143 in the Brute that Smirnov grips the backs of the chairs so strongly that they break (Kirszner & Mandell 1049, 1053). This action of Smirnov, if not viewed from the angle of symbolism, may simply show Smirnov’s strength but of course, we are discussing the play in terms of literary symbolic approach; so, the action of Smirnov breaking the backs of the chairs carries the meaning of ‘emotions can overpower rationality’. Taken from the website, “when we get emotional about something, our ability to make rational decisions has a strong tendency to fail” (Emotion and Rationality, para. 1). Thus, the excerpt from the web simply means that when you get more emotional, you get less rational and vice versa. The chair in the play symbolizes Smirnov’s rationality since we know that chairs are generally strong and useful – a clear representation of Smirnov’s character who is strong, useful (since he offers loans to people) and more often used by other (since his loaners do not pay off the debts).On the other hand, his action of gripping the back of the chair obviously symbolizes his emotions since we know emotions are projected through actions. Thus, when his action of gripping the back of the chair (which represents his emotions) breaks the chair (which represents his rationality), the theme of ‘rationality versus emotion’ is made clear through the issue of ‘emotion can overpower rationality’.

In short, the incorporation of literary symbols in the Brute functions to add further layers of meanings in its interrelated themes; the theme of ‘the importance of starting a new life’ is symbolized by the photograph of Mr. Popov and water, the theme of ‘the importance of making the right decisions’ is symbolized by the door and the steward, and the theme of ‘emotion versus rationality’ is symbolized by Smirnov’s action of breaking the backs of the chairs.

Some influences from drama class. Hey, life ain't fun without a little drama right? ;P